a morning thought

Mornings are the worst.  The mind seems undefended, easy prey for both memories and imagination.  What happened.  What should've happened.  What might happen someday.  Your fault, my fault, no ones fault.  The only way is to get up, empty the bladder, drink the coffee, read the paper, run the treadmill, perform the animal sacrifice, paint the chicken blood on the groin and call upon the demonic spirits to bring you back.

Nights are bad too.  Once again, exhaustion makes the mind vulnerable to abscessing over woulda, coulda, shoulda.  The only thing to do is sit alone and eat the chicken which was senselessly murdered in the morning.